For years now I have struggled with the state of humanity and I have queried the New Age and Ascension it is said that we are involved in. Much of it never made sense to me. Ascension, as we understand it in the New Age movement, is our movement into the 5th Dimension and as we ascend we experience certain symptoms, all of which feel menopausal to me! Its been a long time since I did any ascension work and even when I was undergoing Ascension initiations I was very sceptical of much of the beliefs, which, I might add, I was expected to believe in wholeheartedly!
Thinking back on my first experience of Ascension I remember borrowing a book on it from another student in a Tarot class I was in. Reading the book made me feel so exited, even though there was so much in there I just could not believe, such as no longer having a physical body when we ascend. It was the word Ascension that got me. After 20+ years of conscious development and healing I can see now that that word was my ‘trigger’ word, the word that would set me on my path to becoming aware.
I spent the first ten years working on my ascension. I worked on opening myself up to the highest energies possible, meditating every day and getting to know my deeper unconscious, healing intensively. It was a roller-coaster of emotions and many times it was nightmarish. But I continued learning, and developing my psychic abilities and learned to channel. I received initiations into a number of different healing modalities and used them all on myself…always healing.
One day, my guides told me that the following year I would have to go to do something important. I would recognise it when the ‘message’ came. A year later I received it. It was in one of the New Age magazines which I received regularly and was an advert about an Ascension workshop in Egypt the following June. As soon as I read the advert I knew that this was what they had told me about the previous year. Now I had never felt any connection to Egypt at all, but many of my meditation journeys involved training beneath the Sphinx, but I just thought that it was symbolic. I felt no heart connection to Egypt nor did I ever feel any desire to visit there. But it turned out to be the start of yet another journey in my life.
It was an amazing journey and I had some very powerful experiences, but when I returned to the UK and went back to work in the new Age bookshop I worked in, I found that every spiritual belief I had about anything New Agey disappeared. It was as though that vast space I had been trying to expand into for so many years suddenly shut! At the same time I began to do Life Between Life work and this was amazing. My connection to the world of our souls, and our reasons for being incarnated on the planet in the first place, changed my life and I began to follow a different direction. All of the illusions and delusions, which were useful learning tools at the time, fell away and I was able to see ‘truth’ more easily and deceptions were no longer tolerable…my own or anyone else’s. But I was also able to see from my soul’s perspective on things, which made my choices somewhat more challenging but I felt like I had more control…at least to a point!
I was still healing; that never stops, but it had become easier and I was no longer experiencing those bi-polar type highs and lows. Now my guides started to introduce new concepts and I was on my Earth Healing path. The Gaia Method started to ‘come in’ and I began exploring the consciousness of the planet. I also began working on healing the wounded male psyche. Previously I had been working on my wounded feminine self and all my counselling training had been around that, or so I thought. I had been working on my co-dependency and abuse issues for years but now my guides told me to forget everything I had learned up until now as the time had come for me to heal the wounded male,; as I had healed enough of my own wounded male and so was prepared for this new level of work. Really??? This has been a challenging aspect of the journey and I constantly question it, especially when my situation feels more like I am just being co-dependent, but one night I had a dream that I was reading a message in the personal ads in a newspaper. The advert was to me and it said ‘Under normal circumstances you would be doing every thing you could to get out of situations such as this but this time we want to go into it as much as you can’. I remember waking up and thinking ‘You must be joking’! But I understood what they meant.
So for nearly 10 years I have been doing that. My work with the Gaia Method has taught me so much but moving to Egypt, and experiencing a whole different reality, a reality of abuse, poverty and disempowerment. I began to question how we see ‘reality’ in the West, realising that it is an entirely different reality to the one which I was familiar with. Then I found myself constantly questioning why messengers keep coming to Earth if humanity doesn’t learn anything, or, if they do, why do they then twist the teachings to suit themselves and their own desire for power? Life in an Islamic country is like living on another planet! I began to see the world through very different eyes and I began to think about the fact that the three main Western ‘prophets/teachers had all emerged from the Middle East. And yet, even so, the place is a mess. People are more violent, more abusive, more crazy. I began to despair that Humanity would ever ‘get it’. And what was ascension all about anyway, as millions of people in this part of the world were no nearer ascension than the man in the moon!
Then a couple of weeks ago I received some channelling which magically stopped my despair! Two words in that channelling expressed everything; fledgling humanity. Humanity is still that young! ( I should really read more often the channelling I receive!)
The planet goes through these cycles periodically and during times of greater energy messengers come to bring in more spiritually aligned ways of living. We are collectively moving into a ‘greater light’ but we will still be here, incarnating and living and loving and dying and struggling until we get it and have grown up! We are children on this Earth and we have to learn to be adults. That could take thousands of years yet. But that is alright…and also an incredible relief! We are not expected to be perfect here…now, but we are being given extra energy in which to progress a little bit faster than usual. Again, this is not the first time, Jesus came in such a time too, a time of accelerated learning potential. The Buddha, and other great, and lesser, but no less important, teachers came in times of change. That is their mission, to uplift humanity and help weed their garden! These teachers are all around us and will always be until we no longer need them.
There are groups of Guides, or Masters who I call Lords, or at least that is how they call themselves to me, who oversee the development of humanity and who work with people all over the world to help them steer us in the right direction. They don’t feel under pressure to make us whole right now so why do we? My own expectations for humanity, and my own despair at their apparent lack of movement, has now dissipated and I feel more accepting of Time. We as a people, have a long way to go yet, so why should I expect so much? Children have to grow and all our teachers can do is give us boundaries and guidance. The rest is up to us.